Book Description:
One moment, Olivia Kavanaugh is preparing to walk down the aisle and embrace her own happily ever after. The next, she learns that her fiancĂ©, Wyatt Hammond, has been in a fatal car accident. Then comes a startling discovery: Wyatt’s car wasn’t heading toward the church. He was fifty miles away…with a baby gift in the backseat.
Her faith shaken, Olivia pores over the clues left behind, desperate to know where Wyatt was going that day and why. As she begins uncovering secrets, she also navigates a tense relationship with her judgmental mother and tries to ignore the attentions of a former boyfriend who’s moved back home. But when she starts receiving letters written by Wyatt before his death, she must confront a disturbing question: Can we ever know anyone fully, even someone we love?
When an unexpected path forward—though nothing like the life she once envisioned—offers the promise of a new beginning, will she be strong enough to let go of the past and move toward it?
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Since You've Been Gone is the first book that I have read by Allan. And as is the case with any new to you Author, you are not sure what to expect. From the beginning, Allan hooked me in. The mystery with all the circumstances of Wyatt's death will pull you all the way through the novel.
To be honest, this novel left me with mixed emotions. I would say that the first half of the book had me completely glued but then things slowed down and I got a little frustrated. I won't pretend that I can understand all the grief, anger and other emotions a person caught up in these circumstances would feel. I will say that, I believe Allan wrote out her character, Olivia with a lot of thought and honesty. Which at times made me want to shake Olivia and wake her up out of her self-focused, cloud of grief. There were aspects to Olivia's character that I just did not like, but she was not a unlikeable character. She, as well as other characters in this novel, particularly her mother both had a mixed up view of God. I was really hoping, to see more come out of this novel faith wise for these women than I did. Not to say that there was not growth, there was, but it lacked where I hoped and thought it could have gone.
While Olivia looked to blame God (or others) for everything and kept herself at a distance from Him. Her mother acted more like the Pharisees Jesus encountered . Ruthie, Olivia's Grandmother seemed to have a better grasp on God, grace and faith. She was, one of my favorite characters. However, there was one thing that she said that bothered me. I got the heart of what she was saying, and maybe it is just semantics, but still it dug at me. Towards the end of the novel she tells Olivia, "Being a victim is a decision. Happiness is a decision, too. I don't believe in Santa-Claus God, but He does want us to be happy.". Really, God wants us to be holy. He allows things in our lives to draw us closer to Him, and to be refined. He desires for us to seek Him and to trust Him. Our life's purpose is to glorify Him and to enjoy Him. There is a difference between happiness, which is circumstantial, and the joy that is from Him (not circumstantial). We are never promised happiness on this earth, we are in fact told to expect trials. But Ruthie is right in that it is a choice. We must choose Him, choose joy.
Overall, this was a good read and it does give you some things to ponder. Also, this is currently available with Kindle Unlimited!